a Loony Bin
12.04.05 (5:39 am) [edit]It has been snowing for a couple of hours and stuck already. We NYers use to stick over to settle to refer to snow's unmelted and building up conditions. I am watching out for it is a time like now when my feline husband goes cabin fever and gets pretty much depressed in his own way. I know what kind of nuisances he could cause and how over the years of our marriage. I am feeling a bit loony myself, too, for a couple of reasons. One was to attributed something concrete matters that I happened to stumble into; this client of mine persistently had been calling when I ignored entirely but I finally picked up a call today hoping to talk him out of it. Now I feel very bad because it& nbsp;was as if I gave in to his invasion of my privacy and let him violate me even for certain time and some exhaustion that I did not even get paid for.
This guy was my private client and has been a headache more than two years. It was amazing to hear from him even after I had cautioned more than once before. I really did not want to be nasty but what could I do when it seemed to be the only way to let him know that his friendliness is something burdensome and uncalled for a sexworker she she is not working. It is appalling for me to hear from him, especially after he was supposed to be cut off, believe it or not, more than a year ago!
The other torment tonight was a grudging toned message from my former co-worker, saying "You don't want to talk to me, do you?" I just don't know how to describe the situation that I am w/o getting personal, which usually is not appreciated in the industry. This woman, though, seems to be pretty much willing to act a big sister to me and never thinks twice to leave me alone. Doesn't she get that someone is not in the right shape to reach you back when there is no call back. Her frantic and frequent messages at some point picked up this tone of indirect menacing and something grudgeing. If only she knows how crucial it is to give someone space to maintain any kind of respectful relationship. However, I know it is not going to be understood so here. She is a typical Korean woman, after all, as affectionate as hell and prying as fuck.
On top of all the above, guess who are still calling; dealer friends. Who can make me more nuts than these guy now?